This was submitted by Stephanie Farebrother.
Embracing the Silence
The time I spend sitting in the quiet almost every morning in prayer, can feel pointless when I look back. Sometimes I wonder what I prayed for yesterday. But when I am in the moment of just waiting before God it feels like resolve is created inside. It’s like I know somewhere deep down in a place I cannot even pinpoint, that wasting time with Jesus is forming my heart.
I know He loves me, but in the past I would have attributed silence as result of God being mad at me, or my sin pushing Him away. But now I know it’s just about quality time. That is what I miss most since moving to Kansas City. I talk to lots of friends on the phone, but it is not the same. Just being with a friend at a coffee shop or sharing the same space as my roommate: those moments are not translatable to a phone conversation.
How ironic that what I miss most with people is exactly what the Lord is growing in my soul. In the midst of desiring relationship, not just talking about it, God is meeting me. He is teaching me how to communion with Him. Even if I walk away from my prayer time with no new revelation or an amazing conversation with Jesus, the time still matters. In the hush, I am learning how to be with the Jesus without questions of insecurity taking charge of my mind. I am so thankful for the silence. Now I get the point; Jesus is teaching me how to be a true friend, not in it for anything other than love.
Theresa said:
This is a good revelation. So many times as intercessors we get into “works” mentality. We want to remember to pray for the five people we told we would remember in prayer. We need to pray a few verses, make sure we sing with the worship team, and don’t forget to pray in the spirit for a certain amount of time.
All those practices are important, but I don’t think any of it is as important as gazing upon His beauty and enjoying Him. Thanks Stephanie.
Posted on December 9, 2006 at 10:13 pm
Loren Collins said:
Steph, this is good to hear. Someone once told me that when you can come into a room with someone and sit while you both continue to do “your own thing”, part without saying a word and still feel as if you spent quality time together, that’s when you know you have a truly deep relationship! Its cool that God wants the same with us…
Posted on January 9, 2007 at 4:45 am